January 27th, 2017
Word of the Day: barbican (n):
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When The Revelation Doesn't Come
Sometimes when I meditate, it feels as though the skies part and the lightning strikes and I am hit with the most profound revelations and insights (I am aware that insight without action leaves a lot to be desired, but that will be a topic for another post). Sometimes when I meditate, I feel like I am lucid dreaming - my senses are heightened, everything feels richer, time slows for a moment. In meditation, there are times when I feel like I'm "in the zone," wholly connected to all that there is and ever was and ever will be.
This morning, while I was meditating, I was hoping for one of these experiences, for some clarity and awakening. It didn't happen. If anything, I got dragged around the entire time by my "monkey mind" like a dog on a leash (or like one of those kids on a leash, but I'll spare you my soapbox thoughts on that!). My mind raced and threw a temper tantrum when I tried to "punish" it for its misbehavior.
Psychotherapists often say that emotions and even racing thoughts/ "monkey minds" don't last forever, and it is all about being able to "ride that wave."
Maybe that's true. But they certainly last a lot longer than I would want them to sometimes.
Word of the Day: barbican (n):
1. an outer
defensive work; especially : a tower at a gate or
bridge
The Visions of Daquqi (4)
One of the seven answers,
Names, sometimes
the names slip away,
but it is not forgetfulness.
It is our being so absorbed.
the names slip away,
but it is not forgetfulness.
It is our being so absorbed.
Then they all say to me,
Would you lead us in prayer?
Would you lead us in prayer?
Yes. But wait awhile.
I am still in some temporal confusion
that will be solved by companionship with you.
I am still in some temporal confusion
that will be solved by companionship with you.
Through companionship
with the ground
a grapevine grows. It opens
into the earth’s darkness and flies.
a grapevine grows. It opens
into the earth’s darkness and flies.
It becomes selfless in
the presence
of its origin and learns what it really is.
of its origin and learns what it really is.
They nod, as though to
say, Whenever you are ready.
That nodding was a flame in my heart.
I was freed from hourly time,
from sequence and relation.
That nodding was a flame in my heart.
I was freed from hourly time,
from sequence and relation.
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When The Revelation Doesn't Come
Sometimes when I meditate, it feels as though the skies part and the lightning strikes and I am hit with the most profound revelations and insights (I am aware that insight without action leaves a lot to be desired, but that will be a topic for another post). Sometimes when I meditate, I feel like I am lucid dreaming - my senses are heightened, everything feels richer, time slows for a moment. In meditation, there are times when I feel like I'm "in the zone," wholly connected to all that there is and ever was and ever will be.
This morning, while I was meditating, I was hoping for one of these experiences, for some clarity and awakening. It didn't happen. If anything, I got dragged around the entire time by my "monkey mind" like a dog on a leash (or like one of those kids on a leash, but I'll spare you my soapbox thoughts on that!). My mind raced and threw a temper tantrum when I tried to "punish" it for its misbehavior.
Psychotherapists often say that emotions and even racing thoughts/ "monkey minds" don't last forever, and it is all about being able to "ride that wave."
Maybe that's true. But they certainly last a lot longer than I would want them to sometimes.
Lol. Keep showing up.
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